I have a confession – I am a freakishly overprotective dog mom. I worry about my dogs like they are my children and I am pretty sure I have ruined them for life.
This beautiful Colorado weekend we decided to take our two dogs to Chatfield Reservoir to the dog park so we could all enjoy the beautiful weather together. I want to start by saying this is one of the best dog parks I’ve been to. There are two huge ponds for the dogs to play in and since we have a golden retriever who was bred to retrieve things from the water this is the best place on the planet for him. He would play fetch with a tennis ball in the pond all day if we would let him. We started by walking the perimeter of the pond with Nittany and Paterno running in and out of the pond. Nittany was especially grumpy and was begrudgingly playing in the pond but mostly running around bullying other dogs. She would run up to other dogs and bark and growl and then just walk away. She is not a mean dog and has never been aggressive to another dog but she can be pretty intimidating looking and she knows it. So, my inner dog mom starts freaking out about Nittany not being able to play well with others and I started asking myself “Why can’t my dog be friendly and well adjusted? She’s not going to have any friends acting like this! What could I have done differently to make her nicer?!” At this point I have my eagle eyes on Nittany and am not letting her out of my sight in fear that she is going to try to intimidate the wrong dog and someone is going to take her out.
This is Nittany – She’s a Bully
Fast Forward…We come almost full circle around the pond and Paterno found a ball so we could really get serious about playing fetch in the water. My husband would throw the ball to the middle of the pond and Paterno would excitedly swim out to get it and bring it back. This went on for quite awhile until I noticed that when Paterno brought the ball to us his nose was completely crooked. It was so weird looking – like he had broken his cute little nose. He wasn’t bothered by it at all and would just whimper for us to throw the ball back in the pond. We let him go back in one more time before I really started to freak out about the crooked nose and announced we were packing up and going home. I kept looking at his nose and again the crazy inner dog mom came out and I started thinking “we have to get him to the emergency vet immediately! and how is he going to breathe with this crooked nose?” I was nervous putting him in the back of the truck for the 30-minute drive home expecting the worse when we finally got home. We pull in to our driveway and open the tailgate and he begs to be lifted out so I pick him up and look straight in to his face and his nose is completely straight again. All that worrying (and Googling) for nothing! I had whipped myself up in to a frenzy over his nose and it turned out just to be some weird thing that fixed itself.
This is Paterno – He’s a Klutz!
So here I am with my bully dog and my accident-prone dog and I am so grateful that they are dogs and they probably won’t end up in counseling one day talking about how much I screwed them up. It’s days like this I realize that we have made the right decision in sticking with fur children.
Are you an overprotective pet parent? What’s the craziest thing you’ve done?
Today I was (really still am) in a foul mood. I woke up pissed and that has pretty much been my attitude all day. At first I had no idea what was causing my extremely bad mood and thought a bike ride around a local lake would improve the situation – a little fresh air and exercise are usually a sure bet to beating the blahs but today’s bike ride was completely the opposite. I got home feeling more glum and down in the dumps than before I went.
Last weekend I ran a 5k on Saturday and was scheduled for 4.5 mile run on Sunday. During the 5k I had a little twinge of pain in my right knee but nothing I couldn’t deal with. I finished the race and went along with my day – there was a free beer token I needed to redeem! Sunday I got up and threw on my running gear and headed out and about ½ mile in my knee hurt so badly I wasn’t sure if I was going to make it home. When I ran I had a sharp pain in my right knee that made me want to throw up or cry (actually a little of both). I would stop running and the pain was gone. I walked a little ways and would start running and the pain was right back. I made it the 2.5 mile loop home with a combination of running and walking (mainly walking) and got home feeling pretty helpless and hopeless. To top it off I have been having this weird pain in my heel – it just felt like it was bruised and walking barefoot (my preferred footwear) was pretty much execrating.
I went to the doctor on Tuesday to find out what was going on and they said I had a tear in my meniscus and a heel spur. This diagnoses was made by a nurse practitioner with no MRI or x-ray and I was given the number to some local physical therapists (none of which take my insurance). I made an appointment and met with my physical therapist for the first time on Thursday. They poked and prodded and finally came up with a new (less scary) diagnoses. The heel pain was bursitis and the knee pain was being caused by a weak quad on my right leg that was letting my knee move all over the place when I run. She seemed positive that both issues could be easily fixed with some physical therapy and I would be able to train and run the Bolder Boulder in May. We went over some strength training exercises for my quads and calves and everything was looking good until she said the dreaded words “oh, and by the way, no running for a minimum of two weeks.” My heart sank – I was hoping for a magical pill I could take and be back to running later than day. (Have I mentioned how beautiful it is in Colorado right now and how I know longer have to bundle up with a million layers when I got out to run?) She continued the list of the things I wasn’t able to do and it was pretty much all the things I thought about doing when she told me I couldn’t run – no elliptical, no rollerblading, no skiing, no stairclimber…I was allowed to bicycle and swim. Seeing as I am unable to swim because I do not float, bicycling it was. I’ve been doing my exhausting strength training exercises religiously and today dusted off the bike and headed out for a ride and that lead me to our local lake.
I got on my cruiser bike hoping for the joyful feeling I usually get when riding my cruiser bike and immediately saw all the people running and jogging and rollerblading around the lake and I wanted to be doing that – I didn’t want to be riding my stupid bike. Riding my bike was not preparing me for a race and it felt completely useless.
So, here I am back at home feeling as rotten as I did this morning, making life for those around my pretty unbearable, trying to figure out how to get out of this slump. I know that runners get injuries. I just thought I wasn’t going to be one of those people. I started running as a much higher weight than I am right now and figured that losing weight and getting healthier would lead me further from the possibility of injury. I understand the process of injury recovery – slow down and rehab and you’ll come back stronger – but knowing that isn’t much comfort when I’m living it right now and all I want to do it run.
This new feeling surprises me for a couple of reasons. The first is that I don’t think I knew how much I needed running. Yes it keeps me healthy and I am training for a specific goal but I need it emotionally too. I need to run to stay balanced in all aspects of my life. I feel happier and more centered when I start my day with a run. Also, it reminds me of how far I’ve come as a runner. If I would have gotten an injury in the first month that I started running I would have thrown in the towel and just given up, but now the running is so ingrained in who I am I can’t imagine the thought of stopping and can only focus on what I need to get back to it as soon as possible.
How do you deal with injury and will this feeling of helplessness get better?
Every once in awhile my husband and I like to make little bets with each other to test our will power. Last February we vowed to go a whole month without eating out. For anyone who knows us knows this was a HUGE test of will power for us. We did pretty good – but, I have to be honest, a couple days in to February we agreed to amend the agreement so that food delivered to our home was okay. We were trying to get out of our comfort zone, we weren’t trying to starve ourselves to death and I was afraid the kind people at Sidewok Cafe might call the police and report us as missing.
So, this March we are having another battle of wills. I have decided to go an entire month (a month with 31 days mind you!) without potatoes. My husband has decided to greatly reduce his beer intake. Please note I am completely cutting something out of my diet and he is going to not have as much of something – already not exactly fair. For each day you successfully follow the bet you earn $5.
I am to day nine without potatoes and it has been both surprisingly easy and painfully hard. I knew that I ate a lot of potatoes – french fries and potato chips were two main staples – I didn’t realize all the things that I ate that had potatoes in them including my stockpile of soups I keep in my desk at work. No Beef Stew or New England Clam Chowder until April…I guess it’s on to the Ramen Noodle – it’s like being back in college!
At first I thought my month of no potatoes would be super healthy but one day I replaced fries for chicharróns and another day for nachos grande at the hockey game – neither of these substitutions seem particularly healthy but they didn’t contain potatoes. I am still hopeful that my month of finding substitutes for potatoes will get me out of my comfort zone and maybe even try some new things that will replace potatoes forever! Well – maybe not forever!!
But, I am happy to report with almost 1/3 of the month complete I am feeling strong. Just 18 more days and I am a winner!!
If you gave something up for a month, what would it be?
The Happy Knitter is doing something the Happy Knitter hasn’t done in a really long time – blogging about actual knitting!! During the last cold snap I found myself wanting to curl up with some knitting. I was looking for a quick project where I could have a finished project in a day or two. So, I went online looking for a hat pattern to use up some of my chunky yarn and came across a very cool earband pattern.
I found the Emily Greene Blue blog and the Fourth Day Earwarmer Recipe. With size 13 needles and 40 or so yards of chunky yarn I could have one of my very own. It turned out to be a really quick and fun project. I think I worked on it for a total of an hour over the course of an evening and the next morning. Before I knew it I had a cute earband to ward of the chilly weather.
If you are in the mood for a quick, cute project check out the pattern on Emily Greene Blue’s website and make one for yourself. I am debating making a few more in some different colors to spruce up my winter wardrobe.
Excuse the horrible picture – but you get the idea of what the earband looks like!
Can you believe it’s almost the end of February?! Two months of 2014 are already gone and I have no idea where they went. Things have been a whirlwind since we got back from Christmas vacation. Back to work and back to school with the day-to-day stuff mixed in and the battling of sickness and it’s been a little exhausting.
Even with everything going on our family has gotten into total rut. Get up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, watch the Olympics, back to bed, and repeat. Even the dogs are lazy. The weather has been cold and grey and winter is sucking the life out of me. I seriously need to shake up my life and get back on track!
To top everything off I’ve realized I have been a total failure at my 2014 goals. Let’s recap:
- Continue to run. January: Polar Prowl 5k, February: Loveland Sweetheart Classic 4 mile, March: Running of the Green 4K, April: Beat the Heat 10K, May: Colfax Half Marathon SUCCESS…so far! Thankfully I have been successful in my running goals and completed both the Polar Prowl 5k and the Loveland Sweetheart Classic 4 mile. I have changed my plans for running through May. After a successful race with my husband in February he wanted to run another race (he found out there was usually free beer associated with races!) and we signed up for the Fort Collins St. Patty’s Day 5K for our March race. In April I will be running the Cherry Creek Sneak 5 Mile Race and in May instead of the Colfax Marathon I am going to run the Bolder Boulder 10k. I was reading some books on training for a half marathon and they kept talking about having the drive to do a half marathon and I realized I do not have the drive to run 13.1 miles. Maybe I will someday, but for right now I am going to stick with a 10k – it just seems a little more achievable.
- Lose 10% of my weight by May 31, 2014. FAIL! I have not gone crazy and gained any weight back but the scale is not moving downward. My exercising and my eating has not been perfect and if I want to lose 10% of my weight by May I really need to get serious. I may move this goal to June because I have a fabulous wedding to go to at the end of June and I want to take a whole lot less of me when I go.
- Blog regularly – once a week minimum. FAIL! I think I’ve blogged twice since the New Year. But, honestly after being on a computer at work for 8-10 hours per day and then doing homework in the evening and the weekend there are times I just don’t even want to look at it. I still want to blog, but I’m not that hopeful that it will happen every week. But, I do have some good blog posts stored in my head so just wait!
- Hike a 14′er. Work in progress. We are currently planning what 14’ers we are going to climb later this year. This goal will definitely be accomplished.
- Go ice climbing. Work in progress. The avalanche danger in the high country has been pretty high and the conditions not ideal for ice climbing, but I am hoping that this changes and we can get out before the end of the season.
- My more adventurous – try new foods, say yes instead of no, and try new things. Work in progress. While I cannot think of any specific examples I do feel like I am trying to be more adventurous and trying new things – I will report back with better examples.
- Be more grateful for all the good things in my life. Work in progress. I am trying to take things slower and enjoy the little things in life and be grateful for all the good things in life. I am thankful for the quietness of my morning runs, the warm sun beating down on my after a string a cold days, and cuddly dogs in the morning.
Everything is a work in progress and getting back on track with my goals is also a work in progress.
How are you doing with your 2014 goals?
Something happened yesterday that I never thought would happen, EVER!
Let me start with the back story. I have been battling sickness for a couple of weeks, its felt like the cold that never really started. I felt worn out, stuffy, headachey, and just all over blah. But, since the full fledged cold never came I kept moving forward. But this weekend I felt really horrible – I had a sore throat, headache, sinus pressure and a horrible ear ache and was having trouble sleeping – so I was just kind of laying low for the weekend.
Sunday morning I was bumming around the house and told my husband that my body didn’t feel like I could go for a run but my mind was telling me to go. My husband told me just to go anyways and so I got dressed and headed out. I was scheduled to do a virtual 5k for Runs for Cookies and was determined to do it even if it was a day late. (Which I totally forgot to fill out the finishers form for – but I still totally did it!) I figured that the worse thing that could happen is I would have to turn around and walk home. So, off I went. It was a beautiful day although a bit windy and I was scheduled to run, so run I would. Originally I pledged to run the 5k in 30 minutes or under and when I signed up I was confident I could make that goal. Shortly after starting I knew I wasn’t making very good time because I felt like crap and every step felt like so much more effort than usual – but I kept going. I just focused on enjoying being outside in the warm sun and seeing my neighborhood on a quiet Sunday morning. Before I knew it I had completed my 5k in just over 32 minutes! At first I was a little disappointed and thought about how I could have done better if I would have pushed myself a little hard. After beating myself up about it I thought about the victory – I am a completely different person than I was a couple of months ago. I was sick (which I learned today was a nasty sinus infection) and I still tied up my shoes and headed out. I had made a commitment to run and I ran. The old Melissa would have used being sick as an excuse to stay in her pajamas and watch reruns all day (Gilmore Girls anyone?!), but the new Melissa got off her ass and went for a run anyways.
Running has changed me in to a more confident, happier person who pushes themselves and is proud of their accomplishments.
But today, I must rest, because the doctor said it would probably be a bad idea to run until the antibiotics start kicking this sinus infections ass. (My words, not theirs). Good thing my next run day isn’t until Wednesday :-)
Over the last week I’ve been seeing everyone’s resolutions for the new year and have been thinking about what my resolutions should be. The first thing I came up with was I wasn’t going to make resolutions, but instead set some goals I want to accomplish for the next six months. In July I will reevaluate and set some new goals for the rest of the year. In the past year I’ve realized that it takes baby steps to start achieving your goals – one day at a time, one foot in front of the other. That will be my mantra for the next six months.
What are your New Years goals?